I HAVE TO WORK MY FUCKING FAT ASS OFF!!!

I have to become skinny again,I want to feel my bones,I felt so much more comfortable when I was on my lowest weight,I was happy (okay that is a lie,but anyways i was happier than I'm now)
I have those fat thighs again,and a fat rolls all over my body,i just want to have everythig like it was a week before,when i did't have to gain weight!

I really want these bodies! I need to be like this,they are PERFECT!

HATE HATE HATE

You have no idea how much i hate myself right now

Some facts about me

Kedže už čítate tie moje keci,tak chcem aby ste vedeli niečo aj o mne,takže pár faktov o mojom živote.

So you are reading my blog,you are reading my thoughts and my secrets,I decided to write some facts about my life.

Such a beautiful day

Dnes ráno som vstala s úsmevom na perách (žeby tie tabletky zaberali) Dúfam že dnes mi nikto môj deň nepokazí,tak dobre želám vám krásny deň,snáď prispejem nejakým zmysluplným článkom.

Today I woke up with big smile on my face (hmm pills are working pretty fast)

I hope nobody will ruin my life. Okay,so have a beautiful day,I will try to write something today.

Changed name of the blog

Takže som sa rozhodla zmeniť názov blogu z perks of being a vegetarian,na recovering ella pretože to je to čo práve teraz robím,snažím sa dostať z tohto kruhu,snažím sa vyzdravieť,a začať nový život,znova si užívať jedlo,byť šťastná,zdravá,a hlavne musím pribrať (vlastne už som pribrala asi 0.4kg, pre vás to asi nie je to veľa ale pre mňa je!).Beriem to asi takto,čím skôr priberiem, tým skôr sa budem môcť vrátiť k cvičeniu,pretože momentálne mám zakázané cvičiť,a to ma ničí.

So,I decided to change name of the blog from perks of being a vegetarian to recovering ella,because this is what I'm doing,I'm trying to recover,I want to recover.I want to start new life,I want to enjoy food again,be happy again,healthy again.And most of all I have to gain weight (I gained 0.4 kg actually,I know it could mean nothing to you,but for me it is a lot) But I'm trying to say is the fact that I have to recover,cause as sooner I gain weight, as sooner i will be allow to do exercises. Because I can't work out for now.

Writing in english!

Takže o tomto som dlho premýšlala,a po dnešnom anonymonom komentáre som sa rozhodla,písať články v angličtine,aj keď v nej nie som veľmi dobrá,baví ma viac ako slovenčina.

So I was thinking about this for really long times,and I decided after todays anonymous comment,I will write just in english,even though I'm not very good in spelling,but I do love english! More than slovak,so for english speaking people I'm sorry for my terrible english...I hope you will know what I'm trying to say. 

Môj život v skratke #1

Tak,chcela by som sa vám trošku predstaviť,takže moje meno je Eliška,ľudia ma volajú Ella...Ummm chodím na umelecký školu (druhý ročník začína v septembri) Vseptembri mám aj svoje narodeniny presnejšie 30.9. (17)