My dad is really is mad at my mom and she hasn't been home for 4 days,and I told him we should bring her home,but then he started yelling at me,and I'm really upset,and angry and mad,and I want to cry and scream and break things...I miss her and I really want her here.

She calls me almost every day,but I'm afraid something bad can happen...
And I don't know I didn't talk with my dad for 2 days now,and I won't talk to him till I will not see my mom!

I also don't need to eat I did't eat for 3 month 2 years ago and I survived.

I just miss her......
You would be probably glad that one of your parent isn't at home but I'm not....

Healthy eating and working out? ..... Bullshit

Well,I've been workig out and eating healthy for too long and the only thing I've seen, is how I was getting bigger and bigger everyday.
And then I didn't eat for 3 days last week and I have lost about 3kg,and I was happy,but now I started eating sweets and bread again somehow,and I HATE THIS! My stomach,arms,thighs are bigger and I hate it,I don't have thigh gap anymore...
I was thinking for too long and I decided to not to eat so much,because I really feel bad,and huge...
So my food plan for next week looks like this.

DAY 1
470CAL
Breakfast:greek style yoghurt (150g)+ 20g oats
Lunch:vegetable 100g+ seitan 30g
Snack: Strawberries 50g
Dinner: vegetable soup 1 cup
carbs:44g
fats:12g
fiber:6g
protein:41g
Workout: BH beginner weight loss workout (+10 min abs challenge)
Low impact cardio 40 min

DAY 2
430cal
Breakfast:Frozen berries 100g
Lunch:Vegetable:100g+ 50g mozzarella
Dinner:seitan 20g+ vegetable 250g
Snack:apple
carbs:47g
fats:9g
fiber:15g
protein:35g
Workout:HIIT 10 min
Low impact cardio 60 min
pop pilates 40 min

DAY 3
470cal
Breakfast: apple,orange
Lunch:cherry tomatos 35g+ mozzarella 50g
Dinner: soya beans 30g+vegetable 100g
carbs:51g
fats:17g
fiber:27g
protein:32g
W/O: cardio 60 min
BH abs 20 min

DAY 4
390CAL
Breakfast: Orange
Lunch cherry tomatos+cucumber 150g
Dinner:vegetable 200g+seitan 30g
Snack: apple
carbs:48g
fats:7g
fiber:10g
protein:40g
W/O:cardio,tabata 1 hour.30 min
HIIT 10 min

DAY 5
440CAL
Breakfast Orange and apple
Lunch: salat mix 250g
Dinner salat mix 250g+seitan 50g
carbs 55g
protein:48g
fiber:21g
fats:3g
W/O: cardio 60 min
tabata 30 min

DAY 6
630 cal (PROBABLY GONNA CHANGE THIS ONE)
Breakfast:oats 20g orange
Lunch: vegeable 300g
Dinner: soup 1 cup+ seitan 40g
Snack: apple
carbs:96g
Protein:39g
Fats: 13g
Fiber:24g
W/O: HIIT 10min,tabata 30 min,cardio 60 min

DAY 7
530cal
Breakfast: Baby food 190g
Lunch:vegetable 100g+seitan 30g
Dinner:vegetable soup 1 cup
Snack: apple
protein:48g
cars75g
fats:5g
fiber:7g
W/O: cardio 60 min,tabata 30 min, BH abs 20 min




Now my weight is 56kg (HUGE)
height 156cm
belly size:76 cm (pig)
hips: 89 cm
thigh size 54 cm
calf: 22cm

arm 25 cm
forearm: 23 cm
wrist: 15cm

till the end of Fabruary I want it to be
weight 50kg or less
belly 68 cm or less
hips 86 cm or less
thigh 48cm or less
calf 20cm
arms 23cm
forearm 19cm
wrist 13cm

Okay so I won't be here for a while because I have to go to hospital because of my gallstones,the doctors will take away my gallbledder and I'm pretty scared how it all end up,so blog and writing is the last thing I'm thinking about at the moment...Sorry guys..