I know starving myself isn't right,but I'm doing it anyway....

I don't really know why I do it,I've never had good relationship with food to be honest.
I always ate too much or too little.
When I was younger I could eat whole chocolate bar, big cup of ice cream,half of nutella jar as one food.
I also ate lot of pizzas and other fast food.
And when it came to bagels/bread rolls I could ate 6 in row and didn't give a damn about it.
I was chubby kid.
I ate sweets everday,and I ate anytime.
My nutrition was really really poor. I always wanted to do something about it,but I was too lazy to do anything.

But then something broke in me. (after my sis die)
My brother always made jokes about my weight (and he still do,time to time)
So I wanted to prove him wrong! I wanted to show him I can change how I look,but the obsession over my weight went too far,and in fall 2013 I weighted only about 34kg,I was dying,and I really didn't want my parents to bury another child,so I decided I have to really gain weight,and everything was good,in summer 2014 I weighted 48 kg and I was healthy I liked my body and everything was perfect. But then I stared to gain more and more weight and my waist went bigger,and my thighs went bigger,also my body fat percent went up....
The reason may be I have (had) helicobacter,so this may be the reason,I'm not sure.
Also I have gallstones,usually people lose weight when they have gallstones but I gain weight.
Now in winter 2015 my weight is 56kg (I'm ashamed of this fat)


And I tried to lose weight in healthy weight,I tried to up my calories intake,but nothing worked,I tried carbs wavest,IIFYM diet,IF diet.I triend everything but nothing worked.except starve,or low calories intake.

So I'm gonna tried this one,I will eat every day between 0-800 cal.
I'm gonna do lots of cardio (just low impact because my leg hurt)
And I will try to do 10 min HIIT 2x week
Well I will see what happen,I need to lose little weight and slim my belly,because I have only 28 days till I will go to the hospital and after that I won't be able to move pretty long time.....

I want to take pics tomorow so I will see how my body looks like now,and then I will take pic after 7 days,14,20,27.
And hopefully I will be happy with what I see,I will also try to post everything here (my food,workouts,school days.weekends,feeling,everythig.)

So I've changed tomorrow a little,I will try to eat only 330 calories
And I will try to do BH ultimate cardio,BH ripped core or  BH weight loss workout+blogilates