Relationship with food

I want to say something about myself and food. I've probably written about it.
I have never had good relationship with food,as a kid I didn't really care about how much eat,what I eat,when I eat,I was always overweight (which I'm right now too)
And then I started dieting,and loosing weight and I was happy couse it was the first time when I made something good for myself,and I started to lose more and more weight,and my relationship with food went even worse than before,I stopped eat,and word food scared me as f*ck.
During recovery and few month after I found balance,I ate as much as I needed I didn't overeat myself,I didn't eat sweets,junk,bread,pastas,or simle carbs,I cooked for myself a lot,I didn't use salt etc. I lived really healthy,and I looked good.
Then I started to have really bad pain in stomach and gallbledder,so I had to eat only baby food,pastry biscuits and tea,I ate like that for about 2 month I didn't exercises a lot because I wasn't able to move....So I gained some weight....My overeating showed up again,nad now,my weight is about 56-57kg which is weight I weighted before my anorexia,my measurments are smaller but still I weight as much as I used to before and I really want to change it,because I don't feel comfortable in my own skin,I feel all the fat over my stomach....And when I'm thinking about the fact I weared jeans size 32-34 (during my anorexia of course) and now I wear 36-38 it makes me sad a little because when I weared size 2-4 I could wear everything and I looked good in it,now I fight everyday with myself when I wake up and try to wear something because my belly is so big in everything and I feel BAD.
And everytime I say to myself I will not eat more that day I find myself eating even more than is normal....
I want back my 48-45kg (it isn't my anorexia weight)
I looked at some BMI tests and it's okay for my height so well I will try to eat less tomorrow,or eat only fruit as I used to,and I wil try to not to eat bread because I know it is not good for me and my health and I need to loose some weight before I will go to the hospital,cause during that I will not be able to move I will lay on bed everyday,all day....I'm planning not to eat so much during that part of year....

Hopefully I will get fit untill end of the year,and I want to start running in summer,or at least buy a bicycle and start cycling with my brother and our dogs.

So,maybe if I will start with 500 calories diet and then that 7 days diet I wrote before...
Also in May-June I want to start carbs cycling again.
So plans  for this year are
Now workout as much as I can,till I won't be in the hospital.
After surgery of my leg and gallstones,I will start working out again for 30 min. a day and then 40,50,60 and more min.
May-June I want to try carbs cycling
June-end of the year I want to start running/ride a bike
June-August-do some Jillian Michaels workouts and also p90x
September-T25,and try to do some really badass HIIT wo
Ocober start doing Yoga more (for an hour or even more 2-3 times a week
November-Bob Harper workout for the whole month
December-do everything of those workout,like do Jillian and HIIT,or Jillian and Bob,etc.

Also I want to mention Kayla Itsines WO,I'm going to start her workout on Monday,I will be able to do 3weeks,after this I will be in hospital (1st of March)
I have no idea how long I wont be able to move...So I can't tell when I will be able to workout again,I'm upset a little because I'm scared I will gain more and more weight during this non working out time.

I'm wondering how my body will looks after this 3 weeks....I tried her legs and cardio two days ago and OMG my legs never hurt like that before. :D
THIS IS THE WORKOUT I DID THAT DAY,TRY IT TOO,YOU WILL LOVE THE PAIN ;)